I had this bizarre thought as I stood in the Welsh rain looking over the lake yesterday morning.
‘Find the formula and get the chocolate.’
Where did that come from? Especially as I was pondering big metaphysical questions on the purpose of life and direction while enjoying the beauty of the valley and appreciating its glorious ecosystem at play.
But that was it. I am surrounded by and observe the natural world evolving in abundance every day, yet internally I still have a mechanical and deterministic scarcity mindset.
Oh, bother. I am exposed and laid bare. I’m still looking for the formula that will guarantee success, that I can control to get my needs met.
And that means I still think, deep down, that I have to earn life and love. That who I am and what I do hasn’t yet earned the chocolate, and I love really good chocolate …
These mental maps are so ingrained. Yet, I know that seeing them is part of unlocking them.
Knowing they are there, giving a distorted version of reality, is the first step towards rewiring my perception and changing my internal narrative.
This is hard work… now where’s the chocolate?
Thanks for reading
It has been delightfully unpredictable, with choices to be made.
- Monday: Every day is beautiful
- Tuesday: What are you looking for?
- Wednesday: Entering the flow
- Thursday: Moments
- Friday: Blowing in the wind
The lovely people from feasts&fables invited me to write a guest post. It’s a bit different, but you might enjoy it: Where is your happy dance? However, I am confident that you’ll delight in their whole site, where there are abundant riches to be enjoyed.